lunar eclipse night.

transitions. phases. times. i dont care what you call them. but they are there. looming over everything you do. its eerie almost......

for now, i'll set the scene.
we drove into this neighborhood in the north end. a place foreign to me. but yet i was intrigued-all these bendy, hilly roads.....
it was night. Webby had a good smell to him today. and i was very comfortable in his seat. more comfortable than usual. pushing on his chrome acceleration pad i navigated us to the home that was hosting a friend. he joined us. odd company? perhaps. oh. wait. before i go on, i must make note of the directions in the case that i may want to revisit that spot again someday:::
1.twilight zone gas station road. go upupup towards simplot hill.
2.right on the road with the school and bomb shelter.
3.left on the <---> sign.
4. UNKNOWN!!!
5. hearthstone rd. then up until the end.
THERE! it is written down.

.....so this boy took us down the road. it was a good walking night.the nights are getting cold now. august is ending. september is beginning....
we walk for a while. just speaking human talk. blahblahblahblah. timepasses......he leaves. pk and i look at each other. look at the illuminated hills behind us. and nod our heads in agreement. these hills were huge. completely secluded if you walked back far enough. the path was in a vallley. it was littered with huge rocks and tumbleweeds and such. we spoke. mending words. then we climbed upward. up the steep slope of the hill. jumping on rocks all the way up. i was on all fours half the time-i have an awful fear of falling of rocks. -.- we climb this grassy hill....stars. god. so many. the sky was so clear. and the moon! so bright.....i actually squinted when i looked up at it. and this is the part where, even if i tried to explain i the feeling i had in my chest at that exact moment, i couldnt properly convey it. it was a true feeling. a nostalgic one in a way. i was content there at that spot. with this human companion. and with the sky and the stars and the dirt and the air and the everything. we talked for a very long time.
then we decided to go farther up the hill. we climbed. and climbed. then found a clear spot and sat down. here, it was the same scene yet the city was spread out in the distance. all the lights......such a familiar view, this damn city of ours. ive seen it in so many different ways. we sat there, silently passing back and forth a harsh USA Gold. silence was broken by a chorus of coyotes howling in the distance. ive never heard howling in the wild before. i was somewhat shaken by this. everything at that second. all that howling. and my surreal surroundings. *sigh* it was something ill never be able to explain. really, those hills. on nights like that.......whenever i think of.....living....feeling completely real.........being at peace...content....i think of what ive experienced in those hills. i'll probably always hold that with me. like the mole on my neck....
god, i wished jake was there. so bad. this was the kind of thing i have wanted to feel with him for so long. i mean, ive experienced a lot with him but for some reason i felt that this would've been significant to him as well. made me tingly. the whole night made me tingly.
we traversed downward....down on that treachorous un-pathed hill! it was steep. we finally made it down and went to get pie and coffee before the lunar eclipse.
"come on haley! its almost 3!"
"damnit. im gonna drink my coffee!"
"ahhhhhh!"
"*chugchug*"
"KAYLETSGO"
so we walk pretty briskly and look up. eclipse has begun. a small shadow was covering the top of it. ive never seen a lunar eclipse, or any kind of eclipse for that matter. O.O so we hopped in the car and drove pretty quick to find the perfect spot. we ended up going down hill road and parking at the entrance of that cemetary there. the night was getting colder. when we couldnt stand the elements anymore (mostly me) we took refuge inside of Webby. we talked for a long time. watching the moon begin hiding under that black mass. it was eerie watching such a familiar object dissapear so quickly. it was amazing when it was completely covered. a black circle with really light reddish edges. i didnt really think about a lot when i saw it. just....i was in awe, i suppose. the moon is wonderful. something about nights......they're....ineffable. -.- too many things are. when we are done with the moon, i took him back home. then. i realized a had somewhere to be. somewhere very important. i drove down that street ive driven down hundreds of times....i pulled up to the strange little connected house. turned off my lights and gave the boy a call. no answer. i call again. no answer. i figured he was sleeping so i start to drive away but then back up and park again. maybe his door is open? i contimplate. i didnt want to be creepy. but then again i felt the urgency. so yea. i go and its unlocked. >.> <.< i opened the door to his lair and stepped inside. of course he was on his bed sound asleep. the light from outside was coming into the room and running across everything. then. i dont know. i dont know what i felt. but i never felt anything like it. i just sat by him and held him. and i couldnt stop shaking. and my breathing was going all over the place. i felt a huge intensity at that moment....i kind of wanted to wake him up and tell him what was on my mind but i didnt. but then he woke up. and i have no recollection of what happened those next few moments. a lot of realizing i suppose. i just remember holding him for a long time. very tightly. and him holding me. and we both were just modling into each other in a way humans rarely do. there was a lot of shaking. from the both of us......i believe what we were feeling was some sort of emotional climax-one that is never seen coming and always hits you all at once. its like being in a car crash....one that you watch coming at you for days. and you know its going to be quite the impact when it finally comes, but you dont slow down. thats the last thing you want to do. a lot of tears. i remember that. everything was all shakey and euphoric and for a second completely understood. 3-letter phrases were finally exchanged and the moment couldn't have been more well-suited for such a profound statement. that song ironically was playing on repeat in the background....the one from pks story blog. ive always kept that song close. it was....perfect. o.O am i allowed to say that? very few things in life come off as perfect but that was pretty close too. and i dont know what else i can really say without being all...womanly.
so ill say this. we took our clothes off in the morning and karen refused to do me. the end.


i must elaborate when i can focus more. *sigh* -.-