my cough is getting better. thank god i haven't been smoking lately. i feel very good about quitting my habit. very accomplished! i never thought it could be done. ^_^

well. last night...my boy and i went for a drive to Idaho City. it was very pleasant. we acquired hot chocolate and cheesy seeds at a hodunk gas station right in the heart of the little mountain town. Oh, how i love mountain villiages! I watched a man talk on a pay phone (yes, he USED a payphone!!) and he looked so....i dont know. like he knew what was going on. o.O with his logger shirt and his pants tucked into his big work boots and a nice floppy hat to top it all off. i enjoyed watching him there in the dusk light. ^_^;; i want to live somewhere like that someday. i really do.

i keep on thinking about what jake brought up about the scales of time.
earth=present for millions of years.
sun=has been present for billllllions of years.
you and i= will be around a max of 80 or so years.

commitiments dont seem that scary when thinking in a way like that. we're here for such a short period of time it amazes me. and to think that we strive to learn everything about our existence in that short of time??!! what are we thinking. maybe thats why other people come into our lives....so we dont have to think about it all by ourselves. we take certain bits nad pieces from other peoples' experiences and add it on to our own long list of things we know.....
very strange. very different.
and i thought about the years. and dogs??? dogs live what?? 9....10.....14..years?? what a short existence that is!! yet we hold so dear to them.
agh. ...........

i wish i had a photo of the sky last night. the clouds were huge and had an incredible red glow to them (due to the city lights in over the hills im sure) and the stars were just scattered everywhere. and they were so bright. so wonderful. and i looked at mate a lot. watched him drive #1. how the light hit his features. hes a beautiful person. really, really beautiful. its strange how connected i feel to him and ive only been seeing him for 2 months about. we really jumped into this but, god, im glad we did. every day i think of him and i get this crazy euphoric, extremely anxious, happysad feeling. its wonderful. id like to spend a good part of this short existence with this boy. hes very very dear to me. im glad i am where i am. right now. at this very moment of my life. im very content.




i got a a parking ticket last night.
wait.
let me explain the scene.
HEY ITS BSU DAY!! FOOTBAWLLLLLL!!!!!!! all the men and their blue and orange. LETS WATCH FOOOOOTBAWLLL!!! they park anywhere and everywhere. all broadway and surrounding streets are just littered with this crazy BSU fans ....all walking toward the stadium like a gaggle of geese to a really big pond. o.O and so i drive! me and webby!! down jakes street. and no parking!!! because they took all the spots!! and i cant parallel park!!!!!!!! AH BASTARDS. so i park where i can. and i shouldve turned and parked the CORRECT way on the street but i didnt. because i was aggravated. and so i got a ticket. a $36 fine for parking the WRONG WAY on a street. i love road violations!!! thank you, police officer! thank you boise! thank you grant street!! thank you BSU!!!

that is all.
i want to go play some Zelda before i have to go and lasso dogzzz.