i pulled into the driveway well into 10pm. Weary and cold, i hurried inside the house. I greeted matty as i always do with rediculous "babytalk" and endless touching. The repetitive "beeps" emitted from my cellular devive, reminding me to feed it electricity. i frown. My phone charger is in the car. I would have to brave the cold one more time if id like the luxory of using my alarm which comes equipped with the phone. i pull my sweatshirt back on and rush outside....only to be stop on the large concrete porch just long enough to marvel at the sight above the rooftops. The clouds are whispy and the night sky is darkish. the air is crisp and i can see my breath....
im reminded that cellular device is such a petty, petty object....
a lot of things in this world are. Little pieces of technology that everyone and their brother owns. Things that have become a necessity......how sad. How sad that our lives must be intertwined constantly with technology.....it eats human relationships away. the paint is coming off....
ugh. how i long to live in a time of manual labor.....where we didnt have machines to do the somewhat gratifying work for us. o.O

well. on a different note...
today.
i was at work. and i went back to check the laundry in the storage room which coincedently also has the body freezer in it. Receptionist girl was wheeling a table into the room. on top of the table was a large black lab, covered with a blue patterened blanket. Receptionist girl was crying..."it...looks like my dog and i just had to put her down!" she cries to me. i tell her its okay and go get cathy. Receptionist girl leaves and cathy and i prepare the cadaver for the freezer. I felt the dogs torso......cold...and very stiff. strange feeling body with no life in it. i felt its joints but the rigamortis had already set in. Eyes closed, mouth clenched. Sad sight. i pet the dead dog as if it were still living and slid the camo-print collar off its neck. We put it in a huge thick black bag, tied it up, labled it....and put the dog in the freezer. my job is interesting. the dead are intriguing.

where do dogs go when they die?


im tired. goodnight.