mountain nights

Last night I think Caitlin and I may have re-bonded.>.> We drove up too Cascade to pick up one of her hitch-hiker friends who got arrested up there the day before. The night sky was just incredible up there..the moon was bright, like a planet-y north star. We went up around 10pm and didn't get back to Boise until 1:30ish. Kind words were spoken....and it was very nice. -.- I have missed that sort of interaction with her....I do not exaggerate when I say it has been months and months and months since we have indeed "talked" intimately with one another. When we got back to her house we layed on her bed and watched her glow in the dark stars which were hanging from her bedroom ceiling...it was just...nice. -.- I wish we could be like that all the time. The night before was just awkward as sin. I drove to Middleton (which was incredible....heat lighting+country roads+yoko kanno=heart pounding!) and I picked up Kim. I enjoy her company. But then we went to Pk's house and....ugh. Whenever I see him, even though ive made plans with him prior to coming over, it always seems as though im inconveniencing him. The way he talks to me and converses with me always makes me feel like he'd rather be somewhere else...or he's thinking about something more important. I don't feel like a close friend of his anymore. and that is that. ohhh these days... this has definatly been one of the most awkward summers. Im looking forward to starting work again...6.6 Mainly so I can put my pre-work anxiety to rest!

I kinda want to go to the History museum today to see the Freemason exhibit...^.^;

*rolls*

I just wanted to post something on this 8/8/08 day. it only happens once in forever!!

hmm...i suppose right now im thinking about last night. Jake and i trekked in the hills and conversed under the sky. it was very nice. i cherish those times with him.....our words. i have felt a little strange lately...like my words are kind of crooked. or maybe i am viewing things slightly out of focus. some days are like that....some foggier than others. but when i talk and just let things flow out of me i feel much better. its something ive been trying to do more. i am often intraverted soemtimes, and i know this! it reminds me of the alex grey paintings of the mother bearing a child for some reason. in fact, i reference back to that painting quite often for unknown reasons. maybe the way it illustarates the energy flow....haha. for some reason that term seems really cliche to me....


it is weird that mate and i have been mates for a year now. 6.6 time has just snuck right past me! *revels in nostalgia* how cute!